I remember thinking of all the bodies before me on the plastic-wrapped mattress, sobbing or still, raging or silent, all aching with the weight of a broken mind. I remember asking for daffodils to put beside the bed, next to a picture of my children, to try to make the cold room feel like home. I remember how the flowers opened overnight, going from tight buds to full suns, shining on the faces in the photograph. And I remember realising that I wasn't going to give up, seeing those little suns, so bright, the promise of a future that held more than just darkness, a future I had to stay around to see.
